Hajde povrijedi me jos jednom, mozda onda konacno prestanem razmisljati o tebi.


Zasto te sanjam, nisi vrijedan ni mog vremena u snovima?


Zasto sve lijepe uspomene me opet vracaju na tebe?


Zasto vec jednom ne nestanes iz mojih misli i pustis me na miru?


Zasto je sve zavrsilo tako pogresno?


Zasto si me ti oborio s nogu, a ne neka druga budala?


Pusti me, ne zelim vise biti tvoja...

Sometimes there is a deep sadness
and longing,
for you, for us,
and it doesn't want to go away.
Everything reminds me of you, of your eyes,
of your lips and your hands,
so soft and once,
so mine.

Our story has been told,
but ended abruptly
and I wish there were a few lines more.
I wish things were a little bit different,
I wish we were a little bit different.
But it's a hopeless hope.

I remember your kisses.
I remember your smile.
No matter what some of them will always be mine.

It's been a while, a really long while. And I'm here again, writing, thinking about you, wanting you are here, but not really wanting it but wanting that some better version of you is here. I remember you, I remember all our great moments but I don't miss you, I miss the little things we had. I miss kissing you all salty from the sea, I miss wrapping myself around you, I miss laughing with you, I miss talking nonsense with you. I miss your hugs, I miss your whispers in my ear, but I don't miss you. I know why it didn't work and next time I want to do it better.I remember how we danced, how we kissed in the storm I remember the look in your eyes and how you wanted me, how you loved me, where did all that go. Why were we so impossible? Will I ever find the love I'm looking for? Will ever somebody understand?

It's over :( I don't know why and why it went the way it did, one minute we were happy and all was well and the next it was the end. I feel like you've wanted this for a long time but just didn't have the courage to do it until now. I am sad and I didn't want to end everything so ugly but I know that in the long run it's probably much better than if it would continue.
I would love to have an explanation but I don't think that's ever going to happen. Now I just need to grieve and sort things out properly. I have so many other problems that need to be tackled so I will be busy and hopefully that will make it easier to forget.
Another proof that even numbered years are cursed for me, well I can just hope that 2013 will come quickly...

I feel guilty even though technically I didn't do anything wrong... it doesn't feel right, it never felt right but every time I forget that. I need a restart button on everything maybe then something will feel right and till something does I should forget everything...only I can't forget you and what we had I don't want it to be over, but it seems no matter what that it is...

I could write a book, just so we could have a happy ending.

I don't need to explain myself to you, it's tiring and probably unnecessary. I have all the right answers, but laying them out for you would just make me feel bad, so I won't do that........

I miss you, I miss us, I know you understand, now I understand too. I just want you close, I just want to be in your arms, I just need you.

I've hit bottom, will I break the ground or will I go up? New lows or finally a solution?

Falis mi, neizmjerno, ne znam kako cu podnijet ovo da se ne vidimo, pomisao da je ovo mozda bio zadnji put me beskrajno rastuzuje, falis mi... nisam htjela otici, ne znam ni kako sam skupila snagu da odem, volim te...

Budalo VOLIM TE!